Getting Serious

Okay, okay, now it’s too prescient and amusing to go ahead and commit.

I was sitting here trying to decide if I wanted to write about planning ahead and scheduling my posts. I used to. I was almost always writing tomorrows post today, because it’s an easy way to stay on top of things. It takes the immediate anxiety of “I have to do this right now” and makes it a more relaxing “I should do this when I’ve got a moment.” I haven’t been doing that, though. I’ve been writing and then publishing as soon as I’m done. Functional, but starting to feel like a chore due to the hard deadline.

Then, I saw something that Naithin totally didn’t write, had a good laugh, and figured I may as well go all in.

Quite frankly, part of my problem is finding topics to write about. I’ve not been doing a lot of gaming this week. Mostly just handling details and preparation for my trip, talking to those close to me, with a little bit of reading or anime slid into the cracks.

I don’t know if I wrote about it at all, but a while back I began a complete re-read of Pratchett’s discworld novels. I’ve always loved the series, but I felt like there were large sections of the series I don’t recall well and the parts I had gone back through really hit different now. Who I am and how I process, store, and recall information has change enough that different details stand out.

I also shouldn’t be surprised, what with there being 41 novels and all, but I have absolutely no memory of reading some of them, or recall only small side plots and not the major arc. I’ve also discovered some places where I feel the series fell a little flat. It wasn’t bad, it was just a bit of a slog to get through. There were a few books that just felt like they went on a lot longer than they needed to. Perhaps a contributing factor in why I don’t remember them.

I’ve also found my desire to try and write some fiction stirring somewhat. On the surface, it’s related to a tabletop campaign my partner wants to run. I feel like I’m past the point of a simple character concept and paragraph backstory with this one, though. I want to write something more.

The number one thing holding me back is just my general reluctance to pick that back up. I want to write it, and I want to share it, but every time I go to start I remember every other instance I’ve done this and hesitate. I know I should, and that I need to, and I can hear the words of my friends echoing and telling me I’m not going to be happy ignoring it.

Not that I could anyway. I would rather come to her game with the worst written backstory on the planet than wing it with some half-baked idea that isn’t fleshed out enough for me to feel it.

Ah, anyway. It seems that I’ve managed to find a post in here somewhere, I see something I need to be working on. And if I’m gonna try to write ahead then I need to wrap this up so I have time to reset and go again.

Y’all take care. Don’t work too hard!

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